dun bother reading if u dun know mi...

was looking tru my diary or journal yesterday, or whatever u call it... i realised that alot of things i did last time were due to me not being able to control my emotions and feelings... how is it possible that they have taken over mi? i sometimes wonder... but still, i did not get an answer... what i onli realised, the last time, was that i had to take control of my feelings and emotions, but still i failed a miserable second time... and now, the realisation hitted a second time and will i fail again? certainly dun wan to but onli time will tell... what's the point of realising when u cant change?

second chance, second life, seems like i have all wasted it... no point turning back? or what's the point when it is all going to be so painful and hurting... somethings just makes mi wonder and ponder of things that happened last time... ppl tell mi to look forward but not to the back but still i guess i am just to sentimental... how to? i just cant simply let go and forget, not when itz not a happy ending, not when i have the chance to make things right at the other end, not when... ... there's just so mani conditions... but those conditions and terms, are set by a selffish and self-centered mi, by a person who thinks that the world revolves around himself... so what's the point of following? but i just cant, i keep telling myself... itz too painful to walk back... ... ... or izt not?