at last... at least...

whee!!! today my mdm is not coming... means i can sleep the whole day lolx... =D

finally i understand something... letting go is the onli way u can move forward... being chained down to where i was is not anyone's fault as everyone is ahead of mi, not able to save mi... why? not because they dun wan but onli i have the key to unlock the chain and i just simply refused to... God knows why i refuse to unlock even though it felt so bad being chained down... but i admit the scars on my hand, caused by the chains will be back to haunt mi from time to time...

putting down guilt and moving forward has always been difficult... not sure about u guys la but for mi, some things like relationships, no matter what kind of relationships, are super hard to let go... maybe that explains why i am still in contact with seekers from the past... *(hmmm sounds ancient=D... ) oh well...

regret it also integral for holding mi down... the fear has always been there...having suffered from it for quite a few times, the fear IZ much much very real and alive and recent... and it IS killing mi...

but i pray tt all this will come to an end if i boldly unlock myself from the cuffs... hopefully... have been reading traveling light*(thank cch for the book) and it did alot to spur mi to my decision... sharing by my brothers also helped... i just pray that i can reallie stick to the decision and not regret or fall back... =D

itz onli wednesday and i am not surviving le... gosh... oh tonight have to go tuition my cute little brandon again... =D Whee... =D math today... think he will like it more... lolx... =D at least something to look forward to... =D