itz been awhile

itz been awhile since i talked to u, at least till past sunday... thanx for being all so patient and concern towards my well being and so inquisitive about my life, i have been too wondering what's been happening in yours, which explains the amount of time we spent on the phone ya? u still haven changed abit have u, damn petty, jealous, drama mama over everything... cry baby, ok stop pointing fingers back at mi, now u have no right to do that...

so, u are with rf now? what a surprise... didn't u say that he's one person that u'll nv ever be with in the entire clique? looks like opposites attract eh? going back on ur word again, how typical... despite mi telling u that's one thing u have to change u still did not, looks like my influence on u is reallie at itz bear minimum now... maybe after sunday, it has reached negative level...

u remember what u said about promises? u said a promise is always to be kept in the heart and nv to be broken... dun gimmi the excuse that i broke our promise so u have to break yours... why dun u break ur promise to stay in the clique? i too did promise that once, and i broke it, not that i think i have a chance of turning back to the right path, but i'm just tired of leading a life with too much thrills...

i got caught not once but twice by some other fren of mine, u know that as well, wasn't a very pleasing experience, nope not at all... they tried to grill mi, nope didn't work the other time... i reallie cant take this type of thing anymore, i have high blood pressure(not literally) u know, what if i have an heart attack?

so yes, with much regrets, my guess is that i'll onli wanna remain frens with u, thought alot ppl say itz not advisable(are u reallie that scary i sometimes wonder)... but weather u will wan mi as a fren still i cant control, now the ball is in your court, gimmi a reply and i'll respect that...

yours forever truely,

jayson

promises, what do they actually mean to mi? a sentance or phrase said with the heart attached to it, said and sworn with the shake of the pinky, never to be broken... promise is something that i will defintely do... ppl say once bitten twice shy... twice bitten? three times die i guess... i'll not die this i will promise... yes a promise is to be kept in the heart always and nv to be broken... but on what basis did i used to make promise? i did not want to make someone unhappy, that's why i promise to go somewhere with someone... izt wrong? if i didn't, i reallie dunno if that person will survive or not... not that i mean so much to that someone, but that someone needs it... a promise that i'll make that somene happie in that somewhere, i will do it... izt a matter of life and death? i'll tell u to mi it is... what will happen in that somewhere with that someone i dunno and i can have no guarantees, all i can say is that i'll take precautons... will i still be going to that somewhere, i know i will, i will...