hi all, itz been a long time since i blog le ba haha... atleast for mi it was a long time la... so mani things had happened, so mani decisions had been made... so mani ppl around mi has had lots of tings happened to them that i reallie need to take some time out to think tru and recap and let all the dust settle...

first big thing for mi myself and i was probably my decision to stay in church... after straying and dragging for so long, i've finally see tings that i've probably known for all te time... as ppl would have told mi, ok so the decision is made, here comes the hard part... ya i know too... but somehow, this time, i feel very assured that i'm not going to be alone... maybe i have not always been alone but again, i have been too blinded to see more then what's in front of mi... i see the massive army of temptation in front of mi and i back away almost immediately... what a loser... is this how the devil always win us?

probably a big part of the decision gotta do with the gospel sunday... the interactive tok between MR S.A.Tan was a rude awakening to my senses... itz like the SATAN telling mi, hey, this is how i tricked u last time, now and every other time in the future... believe it or not, itz up to u... survive it or not, i'll be back... i dun deny that it seems like a routine for mi to go back come back go back and come back.. when will it be the real turning back? why do i always fall back i ask myself... probably the lack of determination, support, right attitude, focus and relationship... God said that anything that he wants to take away, he will replace that6 tig, person, situation with himself... I used to doubt but until recently when i had a chance to sit back and think of thhe past that i realised that the reallie most enjoyable times i had was when i was serving wholeheartedly... i enjoyed te times when i was w/o knowledge of the cruel world around mi back some 7 years ago... i enjoyed the innocent faith... what appened to those times? i always ask myself... no doubt somethings have changed, but i guess itz our hearty and focus that mustn't change...

previous sat whent to sing k again... this time, yet again, different feel lolx... seems like everytime we go there will be a different feeling to the session... this time tere was alot of new jap songs, yes which i still dun ave a clue what they are singing about=D, and alot of oldies lolx... yes a bunck of teens singing oldies lolx... must have been a sight for other people.. =D had a fun time all in all,, and the dinner as well... went to xl's ouse in the end, we ordered our own food and xl's family has pastamania!! how unfair lolx... anywayz went to stay over at vincent's and i guess it was the routine? aha... ya he did come to church on sunday in the end... so we must have more sing along sessions, cause everytime after one session, he's bound to come the sunday after that aha... joking..

alot of tings are happening withing the fellowship too.. a few of our CYYAM's family members are not in very good condition and i guess this is where the spirit of CYYAM comes to life... i guess when ppl in need, tis is when the real and true faces of brothers and sisters show... what i mean, is 患难见真情... i guess i saw alot of touches faces overwriting the concern faces of a few people this few weeks... =D am so glad for them reallie...

ok ok... below are some messages to some friends...=D
sorry i think this part is going to be wuite random haha... =DDD

yx... something seems to be happening to you this few days too, hope you're ok... ur blog dun look too alrigt u know, anything must msg mi worx... =D know that u are quite sick actually, pysically and emotionally... but u say tml going to sing k right? den today rest well la ok... =D tml go wnjoy urself and sto tinking of things that will make u feel not happy.. it reallie doesn't help...

mr fung... the long tok with aunty must have been gruelling for u ya? haha i guess u ave alot of things to tok tru with mi now ba? haha.. or maybe not... dun just shut urself to all the suggestions and all ok... =D i'm reallie praying for u that u will jia you and pick it up from where u stopped... =D i hope that i haven been all too naggy at u or watsoever la horz... yup...

yy... ya ya tml is ur big day le.. gg down to celebrate later ma haha... appreciate ur friendship all these yrs, even though it seems like i am the one taking care of u all the time, paying for yr cab fares, treating ur lunchs and dinners, accomofdating to ur schedule haha.. where do u find a brother like that man haha... but just one thing ok, next time if u need my help, ddun ask mi out so late, late as in last min lolx... i dun think as my schedule gets more and more packed, i can accomodate alot of last min thigs yup... just book mi in advance la haha.. ist that hard? lolx... =D later must sing well ah... =D so mani ppl, dun disappoint them horz lolx... =D

JJ! monday going into army liaoz worx lolx.. =D ok first thing first, myst try to continue to blog la haha.. =D next, i guess u have heard alot about army laioz ba? haha... itz more or less what u are going to expect but maybe abit more tough? i guess... dun take my word for it... =D i guess i have some same words to say to u, go in must press on.. know that it will be tough to keep on doing QT and things like that, i guess prayer is the most effective thing yet la.. =D anything remember just msg us... =Deverything wil be fine... see, most of us have been tru it le.. =D including the super not fit one(ya la mi la) also going to come out le so dun worry kz.. =D

px... guess it must be a hard time for u now, esp with what's happening in ur family and what;s going on in sch, ur exams and so on... i guess u must reallie leave somethings into God's hands and believe that is plans are the best for us right? =D right... that's reallie a lesson that i learnt this few weeks in my life... =D itz gg to be tough to do that no doubt, but i know u can do it de... =D and brothers and sisters form church will no doubt be there for u=D press on in the Lord and He will guide u tru.. =D jia you... =D

ok ok... i guess i type long enough to compensate the days that i nv blog? haha... ehx ok.. gtg out le anyway, prep for later the birthday celebration... =D update soon again... see ya guys... =DDD