back to church... =D

first sunday back to church, was a nice feeling that i reallie cannot put into words... saw alot of things tt opened my eyes... some things seems different from before but the love is still there for all to see and feel... ppl are reallie picking up and starting to view things in a different way, a way tt is better for them, a way tt will do them more good then bad, a way tt will make people around them grow even more, feel more supported... i reallie pray tt something or someone in CYYAM will spark a revival and i believe it is happening already, i can sense tt... i reallie will pray for revival not onli in CYYAM but in the church too... =D

monday was a super day!!! haha... madam was not here, she was on leave... then the afternoon 95% of the ppl in my office went to take a test in another camp, so the camp was left under the care of literally us, the NSFs... haha... so we played game for the whole afternoon and surfed the net and slept and slcked basically lolx... but dunno what will happen tml? haha...

anyway today got 3 new enlistees from CMPB, direct enlistment pes E9L9 de haha... as in today was their first day of army la as in haha... hmmmz... THEIR ORD DATE IS 13 JANUARY 2010!!! lolx.. cant believe it man lolx... made mi think back to my first day in army... they were like so sad and so miserable... saw the fear in them that didn;t know what was in store for them for the next two years...

how many of us ever know what is in store for us for the next two years? maybe dun say two years, just next two months? two weeks? even two days? how many of us ever know what is instored? do we reallie trust that God's plan is the best for us? how many of us really trust that God reallie reallie knows what we want and what is best for us? i look back and i think, i reallie didn;t think that God knows mi better then i do... i thought that i knew better what to do and what i wanted but look how miserable i was the past year when i struck enlightenment... or rather somebody struck mi... and if we are reallie happy doing the wrong things it may be real true joy that we are experiencing, though i do admit that when doing the wrong thing, the short term joy and worldy love is nontheless pleasurable and enjoyable... but it doesn't last... how many of us have found true joy that will last for long? have reallie understood alot of things and saw things tru a different perspective and view point... pray for mi that i will press on with the decision that i have made... =D