how to?
ytd and today was so boring man... that's why nv blog ytd cause reallie nothing to blog... haha not that today have something to blog about but instead had thoughts to get off my heart and mind...
i reallie wanna pick up but i dunno how to... haiz... reading the bible is so so so sacry... picked it and started on a few words and dun dare to continue reading it anymore... not like i dunno what's in it but the point is that everything seems to be so applicable and so useful and so jayson bashing that i dun dare to continue reading it... what shld i do? someone suggested reading 5 verses one day? a little too little u think? well, i also thought so in the first place but it seems lile a huge mountain for mi to climb suddenly... i really want to, maybe shld start having an accountability system and people to push mi... what about i force myself to read? no chance, i tried it last time... sigh... who to look for help???
anyway everyone's starting school le, including uni and JCs and whatever la... means there will be lesser time of meeting uo with ppl and lesser time for fellowship... how? will things get worse for mi? guess onli time will tell... itz reallie high time i started picking up le... but which way to go? will someone tell mi? a very good brother of mine shared his experience to mi, though of a different matter, that it will of course be hard to let go and will take time to get used to it... but if this is the getting use period of time, i rather have not let go... itz too hard to endure... i remember the bible said that God will not give u something more then u can ever handle... but this seems impossible!!! izt reallie possible??? i'm starting to have doubts, i reallie am... low in confidence and low in morale, miserable poor emotional boi... sadded...
you... do u know that i am the one that is wishing u would msg mi and call mi though u had promised mi not to? do u know how hard it is to let go? i guess u do too... sorry for putting u tru all these... itz very hard on myself too... i reallie am ian idiot... forgive mi ok... but i'll not make the same mistake 3 times le... once bitten twice shy? i dun think so... twice bitten, three times you DIE!!!
i reallie wanna pick up but i dunno how to... haiz... reading the bible is so so so sacry... picked it and started on a few words and dun dare to continue reading it anymore... not like i dunno what's in it but the point is that everything seems to be so applicable and so useful and so jayson bashing that i dun dare to continue reading it... what shld i do? someone suggested reading 5 verses one day? a little too little u think? well, i also thought so in the first place but it seems lile a huge mountain for mi to climb suddenly... i really want to, maybe shld start having an accountability system and people to push mi... what about i force myself to read? no chance, i tried it last time... sigh... who to look for help???
anyway everyone's starting school le, including uni and JCs and whatever la... means there will be lesser time of meeting uo with ppl and lesser time for fellowship... how? will things get worse for mi? guess onli time will tell... itz reallie high time i started picking up le... but which way to go? will someone tell mi? a very good brother of mine shared his experience to mi, though of a different matter, that it will of course be hard to let go and will take time to get used to it... but if this is the getting use period of time, i rather have not let go... itz too hard to endure... i remember the bible said that God will not give u something more then u can ever handle... but this seems impossible!!! izt reallie possible??? i'm starting to have doubts, i reallie am... low in confidence and low in morale, miserable poor emotional boi... sadded...
you... do u know that i am the one that is wishing u would msg mi and call mi though u had promised mi not to? do u know how hard it is to let go? i guess u do too... sorry for putting u tru all these... itz very hard on myself too... i reallie am ian idiot... forgive mi ok... but i'll not make the same mistake 3 times le... once bitten twice shy? i dun think so... twice bitten, three times you DIE!!!
jays blogged at Thursday, January 03, 2008
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