i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry...

so your christmas eve was lonely, and so it was partly my fault... so what? u think i care? yes i do... can i do anything about it? i think i can... will i do anything about it? i dunno... what can i do to not hurt u anymore and not hurt my frenz??? tell mi!!! if i can do that, i would gladly... but the truth? i dun think there is such a solution... and so u are choosen as the person whom i am going to hurt so unwillingly... u were there when i did this the first time, u knew all about us and u were not afraid that this would happen to u... so y the regret of letting go now??? i hate it when people go back on their words... yes but i did go back on my words on u too... sorry is all i have for u... it's all i can give u...

u replied to my blog yes, the msg u sent mi yes i did receive... at this very moment that i am blogging this, i am suppossed to be meeting u... sorry... u, i know u are sitting there and waiting even though i sent u a msg saying i will not be going... u are emo just as i am... i know that u will cry, just as i am crying now... i'm sorry i wont be there... dun worry u still have the rest of the guys to accompany u if in the first place u did ask them... if not then there is nothing else i can say le... i really dun wish u hurt u anymore...

know tt by the time u read this blog, it will probably be in the early hours of the morning and u will probably smell of beer and stuff... nonetheless u will check out my blog and see what explaination i have for u this time... well, i dun think i need to explain to u anymore... itz been really hard on mi to live a double life and i really want to start my life afresh again... not starting it with u will be the first change that i'll make... i dunno how, but i hope i can... i hope u will finally come to understand one day too...

u can curse and swear all u wan i hope tt my heart will nv waver again... u can cry all u wan, all i will do is to cry with u on the other side of Singapore... u can drink all u want, i will drown ur sorrows with u in my own house... u can complain to ur frenz, our frenz, and i will complain to mine too... u can lie on ur bed and wishing that i was there with u and u can be sure that i am doing the same everynight... u can be emo with all the gifts and presents that i gave u and i can tell u i am still using the ones that u gave mi, the band of significant representation is still being hang on my phone... the ring remember? our first remembrence? yes i am still wearing it... i have not forgotten u, dun think i will ever, i just think itz time to move on...

i'm sorrie to spoil ur christmas eve night and now ur christmas night... but understand that my nights were lonely too, i spent them crying for u... alot of our memories flashed through my mind so much that i broke down, not know what i'll do without u... i have been too dependent on u for too long a period of time, i shouldn't have done so but now i feel lost without u supporting mi... i long for a shoulder to cry on, to sleep on but now all i have left is one miserable pillow... what am i to do? i am forced, i am forced by a supernatural being to leave u...

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry...