pot calling kettle black

i am so gg to bitch abt this person today(s promised)...

oh man she, yes she, called mi a vain pot, hiao ta po and bitchy!!!

i mean i onli word coloured contacts, wrist bangles, bright pink polo-T(which wasn't very bright) and she called mi a vain pot and hiao ta po... OMG!! and then she calls mi bitchy when i say i wanna complain to pf... she was like (fingers pointing at mi)OMG KE U R LIKE SO BITCY AND U R POINTING FINGERS AT MI!! (ten she keeps her fingers and laughs haha...

ok la that's not the main point of today's blog, the main point is that we had a good supperat seligieie(for goodness sake how do u spell the word!!), had bean curd(the smoothest i've ever had for a long time), butterflies(not literally), egg tarts(from portugese) and some dumblings(which were extra spicy) haha... nicest supper for a long time... then the journey ome was interesting to say the least... like and hell of an abdominals workout... no thanks to one literal(translated - litterer) and ms greenie braces(of course with the inclusion of guan gong)... we were like the noisest bunch of 'kids'' ever to board the bus... and yes i want to move to bishan!! haha...

tml meeting wh(die)
soon meeting fiana(died)
ailing say got bad news to tell mi(dieded)
i think soon meeting UJ also(diededed)

SURVIVE JAYSON!! PRESS ON TILL THE END!! WHEE!!

went to visit my brother today, yes my blood brother, in mount vernon... had alot of thoughts... i wonder if tere are computers in heaven so he can read what i type... hmmmz... if he were still here he would have been 15 and i wont be so lonely already... man, i brother to sare my problems wit.. sigh... as i walked and saw his ''neighbours'', actually realised that life is reallie unprodictable... so mani things can happen w/o u noticing and anytime, poof(like david copperfield or now the more famous cris angels)u are gone... makes mi treasure even more what i have now... ya i shed more then a tear in front of my brother again... alot of pictures reallie came to my mind, remember i was reallie affected back den, am still now... actually i suppose i still cant get over the fact tat he is gone... it's been what 1 yrs, 1 month and 12 days, so so so mani things have happened... i reallie wish time could travel backwards. i would have made so many mistakes too... but oh well... wish i can see u soon... =DD

no no dun worry, i am not intending to kill myself, yet... the emo post was just a reflection of what went tru my computer up there this evening... ya... oh well, better sleep soon... sad day tml... oh i mean sat day tml.. sat sat...

breaking news

breaking news... =D

September 24, 2008Clay Aiken Apparently Announces That He's GayBy Jocelyn Vena, with additional reporting by MTV News staff (MTV.com)



After years of speculation and rumors about his sexuality, Clay Aiken has apparently confirmed that he's gay in the forthcoming issue of People magazine.



In an unusual string of events, the apparent cover of the magazine was posted on PerezHilton.com on Tuesday afternoon (September 23). The cover bears a photo of Aiken with his new son, Parker Foster, and a headline proclaiming, "Yes, I'm Gay," with a subheadline that continues: "The Idol star opens up about his emotional decision to come out: 'I cannot raise a child to lie or to hide things.' "



Asked by MTV News for confirmation, a representative for People neither confirmed nor denied the cover's accuracy, saying only: "We can confirm that Clay Aiken and his son are featured on the next issue of People. For the complete story, please visit www.people.com at 7am [Wednesday]."



The news comes just weeks after the birth of Parker Foster Aiken, whom the singer has said he intends to raise with the child's mother, his friend and musical producer Jaymes Foster. Aiken and Foster met while he was a contestant on American Idol; the child was conceived via artificial insemination.



In the past, Aiken has been apprehensive and even defensive on the topic of his sexuality. In an interview with Diane Sawyer in 2006, he famously called her "really rude" for asking. "I don't understand why it's any of your business."



When MTV News caught up with Aiken after the Sawyer interview in 2006, he talked about why he feels so strongly about keeping his life private. "[Knowing] who I'm dating and what kind of cereal I eat ain't gonna benefit anybody else," he said. "That kind of thing is not important. I think there's a distinction. "

I told you what mine is, and I think for each person, you do what's right for you," he continued. "For me, part of the reason that I have anxiety is the fact that I feel like people are always staring at me. So it's important for me to make sure that I have my friends and vacation, and what I do at home with my family and that type of thing [stays private]."

CLAY!! JIA YOU!! =DD lolx...
i admire your courage man... =D no matter what simon cowell says, u're the man!!!

i wanna be a better man

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul

heals the shame

I will grow

through this pain

Lord I'm doing

all I can

To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience

'Cause it's not my fault

I know I've been taught

To take the blame

Rest assured my angels

Will catch my tears

Walk me out of here

I'm in pain

As my soul

heals the shame

I will grow

through this pain

Lord I'm doing

all I can

To be a better man

Once you've found that lover

You're homeward bound

Love is all around

Love is all around

I know some have fallen on stony ground

But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

jj's 46 mins call from tekong...

jj called mi just now lolx... well, he seems to be doing well inside la, said something like it wasn't as bad as he had expected haha... except for the rifle case haha... told mi alot of weird things tt happened, like their rifle parade and so on... and kakas and bees are still attracted to him even when he is not wearing blue shirt haha... jia you ba jj... =D

oh btw, he will be booking out on coming sunday night, and booking in back on wednesday night... so, he is inviting ppl to go out with him on mondays and tuesdays, pls tell him if u are goin to be free as he misses us badly(he better miss us)... and xl, pls remember to bring the book of cards that u are suppossed to give to him on is enlistment day!! haha... he ask mi to remind and nag u de haa... =D

mini weekends, WEEKENDS!!!!!

thursday had half day lolx... =DD so happy... friday Mdm took half day, double happiness... slacked the morning and afternoon after i finished my job, played computer games on the OA account... i'm hardworking ok, that's why i finish fast and enjoy... i realised that in army, u cannot work hard.. cause if u work hard, the onli thing u will get is more work... so u'll work harder haha... but in army, must work smart.. work when u must. stop when u must... yupz, tt's army life... anywayz, at 3 plus i asked my Sir, the direct boss of my direct boss, for early release as i completed all my work and ITZ FRIDAY!!! well, b4 i could find him, he was GONE le haha... guess what. he left earlier then i did... but then again, that was no surprise.. =DD oh well, so i messaged him and said that i will be leaving after i completed my job(which i already completed).. now tt is the way to phrase it if u wanna ask for early release haha... and he just replied an OK... and with that, armed with an official grant, I LEFT THE CAMP!!! WHEE!!!

ok friday went to tuition in church, no i am not giving tuition but somehow just go there lo haha... den made cards for shawn, naughty boi as weien will say, and went out for supper and movie with vincent... watch ''my best friend's gal'' at 0015... was ok la, vincent rated a 6/10 and i gave a 5.5? haha... tot was a comedy at first but ended up was a well i dunno how to phrase it also haha... recommended? not reallie... watch if u have spare change... haha... now the time is 3 in the morning... plan for tml(or rather later) wake up at around 10 plus plus plus plus plus, lunch, chill then go uncle kim hao there... =D kkz.. that's if we wake up on time for lunch ahha... =DD

guess tt's abt it now le... =D bloggy again soonz......

FREAK

well done Jayson, you are being awarded 3 X extra for doing something wrong and helping someone cover up... well done indeed...

boring army life...

thank God for the wonderful tok with my family ytd night.. reallie had a chance to clear doubts and air views... realised that there were mani miscoms... and we're planning for the future... =D cheers... =D

work in army is reallie getting damn slack... everyday i just walk here walk there haha.. cant wait till ORD man!!! Arg!!! 82 more days to ORD! i'm gonna die very soon man!!!

buddy yx, u haven been feeling very well ehx, physically and emotionally haha... hope u take the chance to rest well after reporting sick this monring... =DD

sorry ppl, dun reallie have much things to blog right now... ya, will blog real soon again... =D

promise...

hi all, itz been a long time since i blog le ba haha... atleast for mi it was a long time la... so mani things had happened, so mani decisions had been made... so mani ppl around mi has had lots of tings happened to them that i reallie need to take some time out to think tru and recap and let all the dust settle...

first big thing for mi myself and i was probably my decision to stay in church... after straying and dragging for so long, i've finally see tings that i've probably known for all te time... as ppl would have told mi, ok so the decision is made, here comes the hard part... ya i know too... but somehow, this time, i feel very assured that i'm not going to be alone... maybe i have not always been alone but again, i have been too blinded to see more then what's in front of mi... i see the massive army of temptation in front of mi and i back away almost immediately... what a loser... is this how the devil always win us?

probably a big part of the decision gotta do with the gospel sunday... the interactive tok between MR S.A.Tan was a rude awakening to my senses... itz like the SATAN telling mi, hey, this is how i tricked u last time, now and every other time in the future... believe it or not, itz up to u... survive it or not, i'll be back... i dun deny that it seems like a routine for mi to go back come back go back and come back.. when will it be the real turning back? why do i always fall back i ask myself... probably the lack of determination, support, right attitude, focus and relationship... God said that anything that he wants to take away, he will replace that6 tig, person, situation with himself... I used to doubt but until recently when i had a chance to sit back and think of thhe past that i realised that the reallie most enjoyable times i had was when i was serving wholeheartedly... i enjoyed te times when i was w/o knowledge of the cruel world around mi back some 7 years ago... i enjoyed the innocent faith... what appened to those times? i always ask myself... no doubt somethings have changed, but i guess itz our hearty and focus that mustn't change...

previous sat whent to sing k again... this time, yet again, different feel lolx... seems like everytime we go there will be a different feeling to the session... this time tere was alot of new jap songs, yes which i still dun ave a clue what they are singing about=D, and alot of oldies lolx... yes a bunck of teens singing oldies lolx... must have been a sight for other people.. =D had a fun time all in all,, and the dinner as well... went to xl's ouse in the end, we ordered our own food and xl's family has pastamania!! how unfair lolx... anywayz went to stay over at vincent's and i guess it was the routine? aha... ya he did come to church on sunday in the end... so we must have more sing along sessions, cause everytime after one session, he's bound to come the sunday after that aha... joking..

alot of tings are happening withing the fellowship too.. a few of our CYYAM's family members are not in very good condition and i guess this is where the spirit of CYYAM comes to life... i guess when ppl in need, tis is when the real and true faces of brothers and sisters show... what i mean, is 患难见真情... i guess i saw alot of touches faces overwriting the concern faces of a few people this few weeks... =D am so glad for them reallie...

ok ok... below are some messages to some friends...=D
sorry i think this part is going to be wuite random haha... =DDD

yx... something seems to be happening to you this few days too, hope you're ok... ur blog dun look too alrigt u know, anything must msg mi worx... =D know that u are quite sick actually, pysically and emotionally... but u say tml going to sing k right? den today rest well la ok... =D tml go wnjoy urself and sto tinking of things that will make u feel not happy.. it reallie doesn't help...

mr fung... the long tok with aunty must have been gruelling for u ya? haha i guess u ave alot of things to tok tru with mi now ba? haha.. or maybe not... dun just shut urself to all the suggestions and all ok... =D i'm reallie praying for u that u will jia you and pick it up from where u stopped... =D i hope that i haven been all too naggy at u or watsoever la horz... yup...

yy... ya ya tml is ur big day le.. gg down to celebrate later ma haha... appreciate ur friendship all these yrs, even though it seems like i am the one taking care of u all the time, paying for yr cab fares, treating ur lunchs and dinners, accomofdating to ur schedule haha.. where do u find a brother like that man haha... but just one thing ok, next time if u need my help, ddun ask mi out so late, late as in last min lolx... i dun think as my schedule gets more and more packed, i can accomodate alot of last min thigs yup... just book mi in advance la haha.. ist that hard? lolx... =D later must sing well ah... =D so mani ppl, dun disappoint them horz lolx... =D

JJ! monday going into army liaoz worx lolx.. =D ok first thing first, myst try to continue to blog la haha.. =D next, i guess u have heard alot about army laioz ba? haha... itz more or less what u are going to expect but maybe abit more tough? i guess... dun take my word for it... =D i guess i have some same words to say to u, go in must press on.. know that it will be tough to keep on doing QT and things like that, i guess prayer is the most effective thing yet la.. =D anything remember just msg us... =Deverything wil be fine... see, most of us have been tru it le.. =D including the super not fit one(ya la mi la) also going to come out le so dun worry kz.. =D

px... guess it must be a hard time for u now, esp with what's happening in ur family and what;s going on in sch, ur exams and so on... i guess u must reallie leave somethings into God's hands and believe that is plans are the best for us right? =D right... that's reallie a lesson that i learnt this few weeks in my life... =D itz gg to be tough to do that no doubt, but i know u can do it de... =D and brothers and sisters form church will no doubt be there for u=D press on in the Lord and He will guide u tru.. =D jia you... =D

ok ok... i guess i type long enough to compensate the days that i nv blog? haha... ehx ok.. gtg out le anyway, prep for later the birthday celebration... =D update soon again... see ya guys... =DDD

sick...

was suppossed to meet up with kris today, ended lying down in bed again... was sick for the past few days... got a 2 days mc that is ending today damn... well, all good things must come to an end right? haha.. i guess as much... i hope this ''good thing'' in terms of army will end sonner... =D after seeing the doctor on monday night, i got a whole truckload of medicine to swollow down, damn... tuesday slept like a pig, breakfast, sleep, lunch, sleep, dinner, sleep... that was tuesday... sig... pig right haha... wednesday felt better la but still quite sick to go out of my house... hate this feeling though... i'm a person who cannot stand being at home at all... nothing beats going out with frenz or even just hanging out... but staying at home, no no... i'd rather go back camp man... opps, i didn't just say that... well, tru this rest i also did learn somethings... sometimes when u are being forced to rest, that is the time where u reallie sit down(on the bed) and think tru things that u have always wanted to think of... though not at my favourite thinking spot, the beach, it is still a welcome and comfortable bed i have... i Thank the good Lord for the 2 days physical rest that i had in order for mi to fight my spiritual battle... a meeting with kris would have topped it all up but oh well, i got more sick den i imagined so... now i onli pray tat there can be practical ways for brothers and sisters in christ to help mi with.. i hate fighting the battle alone...

陪我走

我不用再逃避
我不用再难过
在这世上我并不孤单
我不用再担心
我不用再忧虑
因为我要将全部交给主
救主现在就来到我心中

医治我释放我
拿走我的伤痛
让我笑让我哭
我渴望自由
我渴慕你我需要你
你是我力量
牵我手陪我走
这人生的路