chalet, camps, events, HK!

ok finally settled some details... but not all... so june is going to be a bz month for mi... sigh... bz but worthwhile and entertaining and fun! hopefully! gonna have quite some trips to go to and some events to celebrate and some camps to attend... haha... sigh... oh i think there's 2-3 chalets too! woots! cant wait for june to come! =D

the japanese resturant certainly lives up to its name... ok enough said... hotgal! let's go eat someday! =D

just had YA fellowship at vivo again, ok i like the place no doubt, but i just dunno why there's so mani ppl there... there's like nothing to buy there de... everything is so overpriced... =X

anyway had a good tok with kris, i hope he thinks so too, lolx... hope everything in the next few months turn out well... =D

boredrem

if there is such a word... i'm feeling that right now... and itz terrible... dun wana go out to the wrong places, so might as well live with it and stay home and rot to death...

tonight tonight tonight tonight tonight...

previously on lostsoul.blogspot.com

previously on lostsoul.blogspot.com, (refering to the last emo post), feeling dissappointed and abit lost...

recent feelings have been mixed to say the least... void of internal flame and bombarded by outside influences, the fight or rather the will to fight seems to be flickering... beckoning temptation for THE forbidden taste of the forbidden fruit... ok i tasted it already, itz true what the book says, itz a forbidden fruit of knowledge, the fruit of good and evil... u know good and evil once u get a taste the forbidden fruit... but temptation is true too! maybe there's crack in the fruit or something, keep wanting for more... maybe itz reallie time to get out of the garden where the forbidden tree is... oh but wait! the tree has legs! it seems to be chasing mi! how ''wonderful''!

but still, no worries! i'm no alone! provided i ask for help that is... warriorxz in the making...

my weekends...

today's dinner was at pp with xl's mum, didi, xl, pe, ye at ajisen... itz not te dinner that was crazy, but rather the talk after the dinner... we were toking abt ps... the new craze recently lolx... ppl have been chionging up the ranks SUPER FAST! lolx... good competitive spirit...=X andway...

the ''shopping'' experience after that was one of a kind.. aunty bought icecream for xl ye and didi,pe and i were too ful(oh i paid for the dinner btw)... than we walked past alot of shops and she would just walk insee see(yes with the icecream in her hand,and flip flip, sometimes it would be hmmmz not good let's go out and other times it will be hey (insert name here) wanna buy this or not? =X then we walked past 77th street and she saw wallets... den she went,ehx kor kor the wallet spoil liaoz right? i buy one for him... den i was like wow! where got such mums de... =X i wanna ren gan ma liaoz... =X

back dateto sat...

sat morning was well, weird... i woke up like damn early, then went out of the house... somehow, abit like tricked out of the house... there was suppossed to be a teniscourt, then there wasn't... there there was a badminton court, then there wasn't again... then there was a basketball court,then there wasn't again... i swear i was't dreaming still, itz just that if ur name is not ty or vince u wont understand... =D

had tennis in the end, quite ok,but tiring... after went ty house and discussedmagic... =X okno, watched magic rather... then went church...

dinner was at tm, phines restuarant... itz well, not bad... nice in fact... just that the service, onli one person is good, the other one, or rather the rest, his service sucks... we asked him for ice water and he gave a garang(according to vince) yup sure! and we waited for like say 10 plus mins? =X how wonderful... anyway very tired after that,saw shades, i didn't buy, miracal happened somehow... WOW! kaien saw shades and didn't buy! =D ya,tired...went home...=X

on a more serious note,meeting today had intriguing thoughts... must reallie seriouslythink tru... since i may well affact u know who...

kind of disappointed...

dunno why this feeling, hmmmz ok i'm lying... i know why i have this feeling... but i'm not gonna admit it just yet... =X i should be all in focus now... but just a minor situation and i'm all messed up... =( kind of disappointed in myself too... =X HOW?!?!?!

edited and aded a few hours later...

just finished clearing up and ''resting'' now... S U P E R tired!!!!! last min got tua-ed by someone and i had to lead the whole telematch... in the end, the preparations were not much help also... had to improvise the games on hand... damn...

the kids were fantastically noisy... but energetic, fun loving... ended up ok i guess... den 1930 had fellowship at my house, more teachers came, few students came, 21 in all... were loud as hell, dunno what my neighbours are thinking... =X anyway had a good time at home la, took my mind of things... except when someone came and reminded mi mi of something... =X

happy birthday!!!!!

no not mi... mine is in july... =X july 10th remember kkz? =D

ok so anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAO YI AND WAI YEE! =d

today is ty and ye's birthday! 21st and 20th respectively! woah... =D interesting wonderful and eventful day... for them, ok actually onli ty, i shifted my 2 tuitions to the morning, so that afternoon, i can go to teoheng, Kbox, with them... =D was FUN! ok... today got different feel again cause itz the canto day... out of the seven ppl who went, 4 are HKers, jx, ty, wy and jj, 2 are canto by dialects, mf and lk, and the rest, which is mi, is a canto gooner! =X haha... to bei ta men xun tao le! =X but still fun and nice... =D

after that went to pp to shop for a present with xl mf and lk... ok i have skipped the dinner part so it shant be brought up liaoz ok? haha.. =X anyway the shopping... the shopping was VERY exhausting! itz like we hopeed at more then 4/5 stores onli i guess, maybe more then that, but tried alot of clothes... ok onli xl... but we were wrecking our brains out thinking that will it fit or not haha... =X in the end, still cant get a suitable one... haiz... =( but anyway, will keep searching... =D

argh! need to rest now, my tired legz! =X

MYOB

ytd had tuition with ming song, the pri2 tuition kid who fell down from the school staircase and twisted his leg and had a cast... he is ok, thanx to all ur concerns... reportedly by his parents, still able to jump and run all around the house, which certainly reminds mi of johnson, uncanny familarity... =X

was very irritated by someone again... yet again... =( dun understand why some ppl had to just bother abt some things which doesn't concern them... if itz not theirs, dun care abt it ok? none of ur biz, MYOB!

fun and fufilling weekend...

ok i know i am owing quite a number of post, sigh... i reallie wanna get my own lappie, so that i can go online anytime, anywhere... too bad i dun have money... =( wanna help the economy but cant... -_-''

anyway i guess past week has been filled with fun and excietment too, ok maybe onli for friday sat and sunday... =X

friday i went to reborn my hair... =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D am super happy! =D I DUN CARE WHAT OTHERS SAY! haha... =D at first cut plus reborn plus wash in total is $105 but in the end i onli paid $60! woots! lolx... happie! haha... =X anyway after that went to meet up with jj and he had lunch, i watched, cause i'm not suppossed to have lunch on friday... =X anyway after that went to church and we had street bandy witht he tuition kids... fabian and nilis were worse then monkeys, but somehow, still able ''to be tamed'' haha... the old trick always works on children... =D I GOT NILIS TO SIT DOWN FOR ONE HOUR! ACHIEVMENT! lolx... =D



sat morning had tennis with kris and yong quan, olivia's brother... was fun, HIS VOLLEYS ARE GOOD! lolx... must get him to teach mi one on one and then i can beat weihong liaoz haha... =X so anyway, played till afternoon then we went back to church/home... sat fellowship was quite fun, played a new game called, kjsyvkfvsakfv... ok ya, i forgot the name and how to spell it... =X but itz quite fun, just that I REALLIE HAVE NO ''MO QI'' WITH YH! haha... =X

sunday was a bz day... had to prepare all the stuff for my dad with regards to the chen nian tuan qi de talk... =X super bz... i was the logistic ic, pianist, soundman, music coordinator, and basically everything... =X sianz... haha but still ok la... just that starting that time abit pissed with someone... haiz... cant he just mind his own business? like hello... i seriously know better then u ok? =X

haha anyway, after meeting and everything went to celebrate ye's birthday at xl's house, aunty prepared steamboat... how wonderful! =D i think we are a realie lucky bunch of kids haha.. =X peien was sick, poor thing... but ultimately, everyone enjoyed themselves, and that's what;s most important!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YE!

grace

只许桌关放火，不许百姓点灯。

拿鸡毛当令箭。

using these to describe u would be an understatement...

why Lord i aksed, why?

But the Lord said to mi, '' My grace is sufficient for you, My plans are above ur plans''

moody...

mood was very very down no thanks to the ministry of education... actually they said that they sent the letter of ''rejection' last thursday but till now i still havent received it yet... onli tru email''unofficially'' i was told the news by a mutual fren... sigh... was thinking of a few things i can do for the coming yr... maybe take a piano lesson,and perhaps the most important of all, theory lessons... dreading the fact already...

just completed planing next friday'schildren's event.. telematch at my house...ok officially downstairs... wondering if the plan will work or not cause itz young kids... anyway i won be there also... =X

anyway washelping to fight a war on another one of my fren'z blog... cant believe now adays ppl just cant respect the rights of others and what other ppl want for their lives... i mean hello, itz thier live so will u just leave the decisions tthem?

rejected

rejected by moe, was not a very good feeling.. ok, i have learnt to control my feelings and emotions... down but not out, shall continue to upgrade myself and prepare for application again next yr... everything in His plans, as alot ofsisters and brothers have told mi,, thanx... =D

meanwhile, this means that i can go Melacca, Rawa, Revival Camp, and next yr Japan in Feb... =D might not be a bad thing at all.. =D

happy birthday danielle! =D

happy birthday danielle! =D

CYYAM DAY!

today morning woke up with much anticipation... dunno why, but it always seem a speacial day on sundays, and esp this sunday... nope, not dueing to the fact that it was 0803, 三八妇女节，i dun have the credidentials to celebrate it anyway, though my frenz who say i'm bitchy will beg to differ... anyway back to the main topic, ok the answer is already up there in the title... =D CYYAM DAY! for myself, i lawyas see it as a yard stick to measure and see how far i, or we, have gone tru the years...

helped lead songs with ailing today, was going tru the songs, camps and past fellowship groups that we've had... its reallie an amazing thing that itz already been 10 years... that's a decade, fast... faces come and go, somehow, itz the same faces that u see tru this 10 years that reallie makes this fellowship so special... and of course, we'll have mani 10 years to go... =D

no i wont bombard u all with a history of CYYAM again, although i know u all will gladly read it, (if reallie want go see my archive kkz... =X)...

when we started with the song from TMI, 新世纪，新气息, the pictures of the past, memorable, innocent days came back into my mind... i dunno how much this impacted the rest, but for mi, it was like a welcome camp to cyyam... take my heart, renew my life, a though provoking song, made mi think of how much i've been tru all these yrs after i commited myself, kneeling down to pray for self revival... it didn't come... the other camp songs told of so much, so much... so much so that it was all a 2 face mi... how i've been leading 2 lives at the same time... i'm amazed at myself sometimes for having the ability to take up so mani serving ministries that time... sigh... fastforward to life's code breaker, i almost broke myself... though i took up the role of program sub-com(wen, it was more like program ic), i had alot alot of struggles holding mi back...

when we finally reached the last song, 全新的你, i dunno how mani of u caught the tear that trickled down my cheek, the biting of my lips to carry on singing(so as not to let ailing sing alone), the force back and control of emotions on my part... missing camp was reallie the camp that impacted mi the most... to be honest, not the camp itself... but the people at the camp, and the things before the camp... i remember the long talks with and discussions with the com members and the honest sharing of our struggles, though it may not be indepth, but still, the support and the encouragement was always there... i still clearly remember the faithful day before the camp... i was reallie down and almost out... it was a nerve wrecking point for wen... cause he may have had to take up the whole program for the camp last min... had a super long talk with him in city while ppl are setting up for the camp(sorry abt that)... finally made a decision to stay, it proved to be the right one after all... then the night itself was terrible again... come and think of it, i reallie owe alot of ppl alot of things, and 人情！

yes, all of this came back to mi when i was singing the song, 全新的你, and after the song, wen who was sitting right in front of mi just asked like, why so sad? i just felt so home...

anyway uj went up and delivered a ''speech'' of the past of cyyam and the growth and ppl changes... named some ppl whom we so remembered... and also, the meaning of a DM and a D...

disciple card, a ''must'' for all cyyam day... =D

C OMMITED

H UMBLE

R EAL

I NFLUENTIAL

S UMMISIVE

T RAIN

was truely a memorable day, great reminder, awesome fun, superb memories, and last but not least,

SUFFICIENT GRACE from our HEAVENLY FATHER!

thank you God! =D

dreamxz...

had a super cool dream ytd, or rather this morning... so cool that i reallie wished it was true... too bad it iznt, YET! hopefully it can come true! =D

later going for 2 birthday parties! E X C I T E D ! lolx... BJ's 21st will be great cause we are going to sing K! woots! and my grandma's ''party'' will be great too cause of my cousins lolx... =X damn i miss them so much haha... =D

just been dropped a bomb... ty very much ailing...

i almost forgot i had to say this... happie birthday andrew... keep fit and cool always,... =D

anxious

be it a yes or ano, just for whatever sake and tell mi if i got in will u? 4 weeks 4 weeks 4 weeks... anxious beyond words...

anyway today something real funny happened.. went to my frenz hse in the morning and then i got stuck inside... helocked his hse key in his room and dunno why, lock the room.. =X i was like ty ah... thank goodness he called his mum and auntie actually said that she had a spare key hiding somewherein the hse... cannot reveal where haha... =X but ya, quite funnie the whole episode... =D

STOP!

****** *** **** *** STOP IRRITATING MI!

had another good QT today, u all should have received my msg in the morning... =X actually cant wait for this week's weekend to come,which is like in another 8 hours time, at least for mi... so much somuch somuch that is happening... =D exciting... =D

shiok...

today morning went for extended qt with hexi and ty... had quite a good talk and sharing i guess, hope ihave not been too luo shuo...=X i'mgetting old... =X had good meals too! =X

after that went to wrisma tomeet xl, yh and cjj...went to cine, xl had her pasta mania lunch and i ordered thenew(at least to mi itx new) apple crumble pizza... was nice but nobody wanted to share with mi-_-'' i wonder why haha...=X

after that we went to kbox to sing! =D sohappy, but again different feel... itx like, everytime i go sing k will hae different feel de lo... =X this time, more reserved... more toned down haha...=X

well, had to rush bak cause giving tuition... =( haha but had fun anyway...=(

new songs!

check it out! =D

anyway sky, thanx for all the intriguing info u gave mi regarding hk... well, i'll defintly find u if i go hk... 2-3 yrs later, yes... too bad cant stay in ur hse, or else we'ld have a fantastic time... =X but u promised u'll stay in hotel with mi ah? =D

yummy!

had steamboat today for dinner, YUMMY! but because of that, missed out on dinner at xl's hse and mahjong session, ahha... nvm, there's still a next time i hope! =X

sat bzness...

cant believe i just spent 1.5 hours of my life on a movie that was sooooo random crap... =X what a waste of my life... =X

ytd YA fellowship was like very different... dunno why, itz just the feeling... itx like, dunno... maybe itz because of the rain, or what happened b4 the fellowship? hmmmz...

today genesis, looking forward again... =D

talked to sky on fb again... SKY I MISS U!!!!! too bad u're not in sg now... =X