birthday bash... not yet... not mine...

going to my darling's birthday party later... OMG glorious food haha... =D as if i can see the futur... sigh... gonna be a crazy night... again... going down early to help prepare... i took half day just for u ok.. =D





the countdown continues, 9 days.

time is passing so so so so so so so so so slow, ok u get my point...

tiimmmeeee iss paasssssssiiiiinnnnnnggggggg veerrryyyy sllooowwwwlllllyyyyyy.......

sianz... today at camp didn;t reallie do much, (which is good i guess) but then time is still crawing at a even slower pace then snail's pace... endless arrows still come out at mi and i still kanna them, (maybe because my size too big ba)... super sianz... bitch didn't call mi to go up bunk and sleep, made mi so uncomfortable on the arm chair, (which was the god one so couldn;t bend), and i had to endure the possibility of bazooka coming out anytime, amnymoment...

2 of my fren's mind are still not working properly... sianz... when will they ever learn? i'm quite sick and tired of playng the good guy... always consoling them and telling them it's alright... how to survive? how i wish i have such a fren to treat mi like what i am treating them too..

oh ya forgot i have to say this, happy ORD CJ!!







the countdown continues, 10 days.

rest day in camp...

lolx... finally got to rest today... sigh... if onli everyday was like thgis, life would be fantastic...

xiang told mi that the trip's briefing was on next tuesday, omg,.... freaking agency dunno how to plan things one lo... make it on a freaking tuesday, weekday, working day... damn it... have to take half day just to reach ppl's park centre at 7... so that i will not be late... damn it... but then again, quite excited to see xiangz again lolx... =D






the countdown continues, 10 days.

''hello...'' ''huh.......'' lolx...

Mdm came back to camp today, finally, though we all hope tt she had not, had like 200 plus plus plus mails... lolx... crazy... luckily didn;t have much work to do, was so tired tt i even ''tuanged'' abit, not my usual working style though...

had te first camp meeting... xl on the phone...

xl ''hello XX ah...''
XX ''huh.......''
xl *burst out laughing NON STOP!!
XX *Laughs out too...
xl ''Why u laugh?''
XX '' XL u very funny lehz, call mi the laugh non stop''

ok ok, long story behind this, tose wo understand will understand... those who dunno, dun ask mi, asl XL!! haha...







the countdown continues, 11 days.

deepavali - spent in the light....

morning had QT with wen, hx, jx, zl, cch... was quite fruitful for after a long time... well, guess everything comes at a time for a certain reason...

afternoon went to study... i studied too, the chords of the song book... damn sleepy, lack of sleep, 3 hours last night... shit, go camp sure sei... aiya, doesn't matter also, cant wait to get out the freaking place...

found out tt i've been spending money like water recently, treating ppl, buying gifts, spending(or rather splurging) on ppl when i shouldn't ave... well, i like it and tt's all tt matters(i guess)... damn... may have to spend lesser in taiwan, sharks...

darling ck, i've reserved the 5th evening onads for u le... crossed out haha.. touched ma lolx...







i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 12 days.

crisis?

sermon today was touchy... is every crisis reallie a chance tt God gave u to pull u back to Him? if so, this one has taken damn too long...

toys'r'us reallie has alot of damn things and cute things... the childhood, innocence... the past is someting to be forgotten, but what abt the good memories? the future is something to be looked forward to, but what about the bleak future?







i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 13 days.

friday night fever

today was not bad at all, didn't started out as promising as it did but in the end, still was fulfilling... 3SG was on Mc, REC was on MC and LCP was on leave, that leaves a freaking CPL out of the 4 ppl in PA section... luckily, Mdm took urgent leave in the morning for the whole day and thus, i ended up kind of slacking again! at first couldn;t take half day to play floorball but end up my boss just relented.. he was actually on a bad mood as some fighting were going on and some ppl were sent to the hospital and all, he was not a very happy man at all lolx.. sadded... but i got a better note, i have 2 birthday parties to attend to thiscoming week... =D Whee!=D

Jude darling, how do u want mi to pln for ur birthday? haha.. hmmmz.. question is u haven even asked ppl togo for it yet lol... ok so u dunno what time tostart onli knowing that i wont end? haha,, that's a nice one... ok i'll start thinking of ideas to plan lolx.. =D






'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 15 days.

tml's program

note from self to self... here's ur schedule for tml...

0645 - wake up go camp

0740 - reac camp(late for first parade)

0850 - go for breakfast

1200 - rush home

1300 - meet cch at woodlands

1500 - the battle commences

1900 - fellowsip

2140 - selegie fellowship

damn irritated by miss spider... can u just be less kan cheong and do more work? sianz...

taking half day tml AGAIN!! =D gg for street bandy.. =D yes, itz been revived =D hopefully it will last... sat morning going for tennis sessions... hopefully it will materialise...

still thinking of what i can do on sat between 2pm to 5pm... anyone wanna date mi? haha... i'll be in parkway, probably shopping, spending money, ya economy's bad, must spend more on Singapore products, boost the economy, i'm doing my little part... =D

retail therapy AGAIN!!! hopefully can find the red chequered shirt that i want... =D maybe can buy my dear jude's birthday gift also haha... darling i am so looking forward to ur birthday party haha... =D i'll be late though lolx...

today marks the end of my teaching my cute little boy, brendon, at least till december... so damn cute, kor kor will pray for ur exams tml... jia you for ur math... =D







i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 16 days...

my so ''uneventful'' day

Mdm wasn't here today... was so happie, tuanged for the whole day =D well not excatly... was being held up to my position by another mdm, had to do so much shit work, she tried to change the style of our doing work, HATE HER! but then again, who could blame her for being a GAN CHEONG SPIDER, no, no sacarsm here intended... itz just her style of doing work, i try to convince myself, didn't work...

was so damn irritated by another one of my collegue again, said it was SIC but still he PURPOSELY took and see... nope, the word purpopsely was bolded on purpose, no punt intended either... and i again try to convince myself again, i'll onli be seeing him for another damn few more working days, and that's it...

Justin became a LOSER again, LOSER, spelt with all CAPS!!!!! i hate u man justin, and if u are seeing this post, then too bad to u... who ask u to keep backstabbing ppl and complain to ur higher authorithy? neahz... even the newest of the newest clerk, which we all dun reallie like too, didn;'t bother abt u at all too!! and i meannot abit, LOSER!!!






i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 17 days...

challenge

was challenged by someone to come out of my comfort zone again... i feel like i owe him and him so much... too much that i feel guilty from keeping secrets from him... miserable... so mani considerations...

i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 18 days...

back from little india

just came back from little india, weird smell and weird food, didn;t reallie eat the ''buffet'' lunch...

alot of people made very weird comments on my dressing today lolx... and alot of weird questions came too lolx... izt that obvious? haha.. denial came in vain...

tuesday to thursday mdm not here! Whee!! =DD shall go up to Hd MP Br and take care of the office for Qi haha... see i'm a gody fren.. =D

i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown continues, 19 days...

dreamz

had a very weird dream just now, izt a sign of things to come? i hope so, maybe not... perhaps...

i'm reallie looking forward to it... the countdown begins, 20 days...

itz been awhile

itz been awhile since i talked to u, at least till past sunday... thanx for being all so patient and concern towards my well being and so inquisitive about my life, i have been too wondering what's been happening in yours, which explains the amount of time we spent on the phone ya? u still haven changed abit have u, damn petty, jealous, drama mama over everything... cry baby, ok stop pointing fingers back at mi, now u have no right to do that...

so, u are with rf now? what a surprise... didn't u say that he's one person that u'll nv ever be with in the entire clique? looks like opposites attract eh? going back on ur word again, how typical... despite mi telling u that's one thing u have to change u still did not, looks like my influence on u is reallie at itz bear minimum now... maybe after sunday, it has reached negative level...

u remember what u said about promises? u said a promise is always to be kept in the heart and nv to be broken... dun gimmi the excuse that i broke our promise so u have to break yours... why dun u break ur promise to stay in the clique? i too did promise that once, and i broke it, not that i think i have a chance of turning back to the right path, but i'm just tired of leading a life with too much thrills...

i got caught not once but twice by some other fren of mine, u know that as well, wasn't a very pleasing experience, nope not at all... they tried to grill mi, nope didn't work the other time... i reallie cant take this type of thing anymore, i have high blood pressure(not literally) u know, what if i have an heart attack?

so yes, with much regrets, my guess is that i'll onli wanna remain frens with u, thought alot ppl say itz not advisable(are u reallie that scary i sometimes wonder)... but weather u will wan mi as a fren still i cant control, now the ball is in your court, gimmi a reply and i'll respect that...

yours forever truely,

jayson

promises, what do they actually mean to mi? a sentance or phrase said with the heart attached to it, said and sworn with the shake of the pinky, never to be broken... promise is something that i will defintely do... ppl say once bitten twice shy... twice bitten? three times die i guess... i'll not die this i will promise... yes a promise is to be kept in the heart always and nv to be broken... but on what basis did i used to make promise? i did not want to make someone unhappy, that's why i promise to go somewhere with someone... izt wrong? if i didn't, i reallie dunno if that person will survive or not... not that i mean so much to that someone, but that someone needs it... a promise that i'll make that somene happie in that somewhere, i will do it... izt a matter of life and death? i'll tell u to mi it is... what will happen in that somewhere with that someone i dunno and i can have no guarantees, all i can say is that i'll take precautons... will i still be going to that somewhere, i know i will, i will...

re-post(is there even such a word?!?!

dun ask mi why i deleted the previous post, i just dun wan ppl to worry abt mi ok.. =D ya i'm fine dun worry... or at least i think so... have been reading somehing in hope that it will spur mi on and found the following...

guess what was chpt 10(the place where i stopped) on the book travelling light talking about?, the burden of grace - i will lead u home... like wow, this iznt the firt time the QT material i am gg to read seems so relevant and i dun know why, maybe i do, no i dun... pslams 23 clearly stated that though i been tru the valleys of death but i shall not be afraid... why? because my shepherd is here... so why am i still afraid, tired? probably i haven acknowledge him as my personal shepherd? i guess, i dunno...

alot of contrasting tots in my head... the same old previous tots? perhaps... shall not think so much le... too much things cramped up there... no point forcing myself? i shall be happy once more... =D happie jayson, jayson happie...

street bandy in a few hours time... whee... =D

update...

sorry all readers, habe not been posting alot recently due to the work load and arising of situations... was bz, ok not excatly brain wrecking, witht the games for the church retreat... how do u plan a game where u can involve all age groups, 16 to 70+, wake them up from their slumber, itz earli in the morning, and like 50 ++ ppl playing together, well all i can say is that whatever xl and i planned, didn't work out haha... ended up it was all impromptu...but retreat was good, pray for church revival...

was upset about something that had happened... itz not the system's fault, neither izt ppl's fault... actually i also dunno why am i saying this... can i say i feel alreight now? i dun think so... i felt abit betrayed... dun ask mi by who cause i cant tell u... as in i also dun reallie know if i felt betrayed by the system or by ppl whom i think i can trust... i believe in the ppl, and i still believe in them.. do i believe in the system? i guess not as much as i believe in the ppl in the system... in this case izt wise for mi to cont on in this system? there are ppl who left bcoz of the system, and of coz some for other reasons... but i have been trying to thik what ultimately made mi stay on believing? and not so dramatically, it felt as if i got played out by it... i got assurances from ppl that it was not a glich in the system but rather something else, but i still cant come to terms with it.. was asked by someone to think if i am actually angry/upset with the person or the system... i still cant think of an ans... if not both, what could it be? i'm just shocked? just shocked? i find it abit too amusing sometimes... human can be so dis-trusting(uif there is such a word), or maybe itz just me... if itz just mi, then itz fine... at least i can just solve the problem myself, i hope...

was thinking if gg taiwan was the correct choice after all, (yx if u are seeing this, dun worry i am still gg), itz like my financial iznt all that fantastic and i wasn't very involved in the booking of tickets and tours.. but oh weel, this i realie just a random tot that came into my mind, i will enjoy my Taiwan trip de dun worry... RETAIL TERAPHY!!!