thanx

i dunno how to communicate with other ppl abt my problems... i really wanted to tell u but i just cant type it out on my phone... itz reallie not that i dun trust u or what... i can feel that u seem a little disappointed that i dun tell u my problems but trust mi for once that i dun wish to hurt another person again le... thanks for praying for mi... thanks for having a listening ear when i need one...

idiot

F*****G BARBER!!!

i wanna be happie...

又被爱伤了一遍

无所谓

当作成长

刚刚走开的人

烟还点著

味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞

却比任何人都多

就算把世界给我

我还是一无所有

我要快乐

我要能睡的安稳

有些人不抱了才温暖

离开了才不恨

我早应该割捨

我要快乐

哪怕笑的再大声

心不是热的

全都是假的

只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍

谢谢了

伤我的人

想做乐观的人

每种雨声

听了都不冷

enlightenment

i finally understand that the best form of love may be memories after all...

love is...

caring is loving, loving is giving, giving is losing, losing is learning, learning is pain, pain is weakness leaving your body - aka growing up...

happie? i think so...

tired, veri tired...

happie mi today.. thanx sisters and brother for the ''night life''today... very distracting... was suppossed to be sad and fustrated but guess church made things easier for mi... thanx a million... =)

tired, lost, defeated

我累了，我真的累了。

我输了，我真的输了。

我败了，我真的败了。

我忘了，我真的忘不了。。。

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折

我总会遇见一个什么人

陪我过没有了他的人生

成家立业之类的等等

他做了他觉得对的选择

我只好祝福他真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

他心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

他真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨 他的爱怎么那么深

我的爱人 他已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 他或他说(我们)

就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

adios to my old life... jayson, welcome to the real world...

adios

yeaterday was redemtion day... didn't turn out to what it was suppossed to be... you said u wanted to meet mi, i agreed, for the last time. from afar, all i can see was that this time u are not putting up a show for mi, this time itz for real... didn't go up to u in the end, but i wish u all the best with him... eastern valentine's day, what a day to do this to mi... thanx... take care... adios...

i think

我想我可以习惯一个人生活

我想我可以假装不逞爱过

爱情是个梦而我睡过头

难道

难道你还没看到整个天慢慢灰了

你说的我总做到就除了把你给忘掉

难道你还没听到我的心慢慢碎了

连电话我都删掉可是你的笑怎么清除掉

忘也忘不掉

忘也忘不掉

不能说的秘密

不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

u are very very very wrong

为何连分手都不跟你争吵

撂下一句话就想逃跑

让你 爱难平 恨难消 情难灭 梦难了

心难过 我却放手 一了百了

离开我说是为了你好

可知道这句话伤人不少

就算忘不了 没有大不了

反正一切都不再重要

我的心既然你全都不了

何必再继续彼此困扰

斩断纠缠的爱

从今就一了百了

u think u are the onli one affacted? let mi tell u that u are wrong... very wrong...

yesterday once more

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where i'm breakin' your heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

我们的故事

我们的故事

在你左右

还有多久

怎么样才能让时间倒流

每一分每一秒都珍重

握紧的手不愿放松

十点半的飞机它在等候

不要再让自己的眼泪流

我必须要走

要记得

我们的故事真的难忘

太多的回忆和希望

不管它有多疯狂

我愿意一生收藏

我们的故事不能忘

太多的情节要发展

不要放弃

因为有一天缘份会继续

一定会继续

i am at a lost of words of what to say... i guess i dun have to say anythng right now... aching all over though, sports are good, good form of distraction... can vent my anger... utilise all my strength on other things rather then useless thinking... the precher is right... what our minds focus on and think determins the road where we are heading... itz hard, very hard...

what a whole lot of crap...

不在乎天长地久

只在乎曾经拥有

what a whole lot of crap...

我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人

今后各自曲折 各自悲哀

只怪我们爱得那么汹涌 爱得那么深

于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了

却回不了神

如果当初在交会时能忍住了 激动的灵魂

也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里

沉沦

知足

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹

怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风

天上的星星 笑地上的人

总是不能懂不能觉得足够

如果我爱上 你的笑容

要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有

如果你快乐 再不是为我

会不会放手 其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空

为了你 而祈祷 而祝福 而感动

终于你身影 消失在人海尽头

才发现 笑著哭最痛

那天你和我 那个山丘

那样的唱著 那一年的歌

那样的回忆 那么足够

足够我天天都品尝著寂寞

(知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛)

新不了情

新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了

这份深情难舍难了

曾经拥有天荒地老

已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情永远难了

原来时还能再度拥抱

爱你的人如何死守到老

怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了

为何你还来拨动我心跳

爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了

愿难了情难了

how many times more

一生要失败几回，

才知道成功的意义；

一生要爱过几回，

才了解爱的真谛。

爱一个人

爱一个不该爱的人好难

要忘记一个该忘记的人更难

我放不下 试过去放下

可是我办不到 还是放不下

valentines' day

valentines' day didn't turn out how it was supposed to be... though i did meet drew alone in the afternoon, i ended up not going to where i was not supposed to go... did i regret? no comments... went to church instead, wasn't in the mood for anything... everyone was so happy and i was nothing but that...

u msg to mi...

Dun wan... 2dae moi b'dae u do tiz to moi... i hate u i hate u i hate u!
moi super unhappie, super unhappie...

i am suppossed to be happy that the ur love is finally dead,
but why am i feeling this feeling of regret and hatred for myself instead...
it was suppossed to be a double happiness for u,
but instead i made it a double sadness for mi and u...
drew told mi that u all had fun,
and u two had even more fun...
wishing u all the best,
just let mi rot in peace with the mess...

i am not suppossed to

tml is the day le... where will i be? in less then 24 hours, the moment of truth will be told... what am i truely thinking and where my heart truely belongs...

i am not suppossed to love u...

i am not suppossed to care...

i am not suppossed to live my life wishing u were there...

i am not suppossed to wonder where u are or what are u doing...

i am sorry, i just cant help myself...

nothing

u asked mi what was wrong with mi and i cheerful replied to u NOTHING...

den i turned around and whispered everything...

i don't think itz possible

work like u dun need money, dance like no one's watching you, love like u've never been hurt before...

reminder to myself...

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by: holding up a $20.00 bill In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this $20 bill?' Hands started going up. He said, 'I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill . He then asked, 'Who still wants it?' Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, 'What if I do this?' And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. 'Now, who still wants it?' Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who
DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special Count your blessings, not your problems. 'And remember: amateurs built the ark .... professionals built the Titanic. 'If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

busy busy busy

woohoo!!! second fund raising and the conclusion to our two week long cooking activity... was a blast!!! sat was all the way chopping and preparing still, and icecream float=D lolx... sunday was a mirical that i survived lolx=D cause didn't actually sleep much on sat, like i wont say it out JIC i get hacked into pieces the next time i see weien, lolx... but anyway that's not important... =D ya so anyway everything was ok and everything was fun la lolx... and we had CYYAM reunion dinch after that lolx... so cool, not enough veg and meat though lolx... =D hope that the food i cooked was nice anyway... hope nobody vomitted or stuck to the toilet when they reach home ah... lolx...

monday was fun!!! oh no i dont mean the army part... lolx... i mean I WENT SHOPPING!!! lolx

yea in the ''bugis street'' near my house... good quality and bargain price... also i know one of the shop ownerws, who also has a store in bugis, so in short VERY GOOD LA!!! and i spent XXX dollars in total, including my bunny bag and purple sweater... =D anyway so happie now!!! lolx... shall wear new clothes to go leah's house on friday... =D

ya anyway tml is reunion dinner le... how exciting=D long time nv see my granny le, mssing her so much... must spend some time talking to her later... den monday going to malaysia to see my maternal granny!!! WEE!!! ya so friday should be going to paternal side to bai nian den go leah's house.... lolx... so i'm free on sat and sunday!!! think must go get a date=D ok i didn't say that lolx...

ya anyway QT have been reallie tough for mi to apply in my life la... which has been for most of the case actually... like all along i have known what am i suppossed to do and what i need to do and not do but all the time, it has been the things that i failed to do... i mean no doubt it is hard, though to change and correct ourselves and i reallie think it would not be possible if not for the fact that i am in CYYAM... reallie am very thankful for this home of mine... =D and esp all those who have been praying for mi... i guess i reallie hope for everyday to be sunday, but till that happens, i will just have to work hard everyday to make everyday a pleasing one unto my father... i am taking this chinese new yr as a second opportunity to reflect through and think through more things and more detailed and indepth so i guess my road ahead will be tougher??